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Decisions

Decisions

The Lost and Found: What Do I Do?!?

Published by communitypublishingabq@gmail.com on September 24, 2015 Respond

What Do I Do?!?: How I started making good decisions for myself by Chessa Peak

Part 1 of a 3 part series

I was the queen of bad decisions until a life changing surgery five years ago. My life was a turbulent and traumatic mess. I had spent my entire adult life in physical pain, at times white out pain. Between the amount of estrogen and physical pain I was in and no pain management other than what I prescribed myself, it’s a wonder I’m not an addict, in prison or dead. For the
What I Dolast 5 years I have been decompressing from the severity of my life and overhauling myself. It took a long time to see how I was perpetuating the bad decisions in my life but through the strength of my convictions I am seeing more results than anyone I have ever known.

Feeling lost is something I’m very familiar with and I see so many struggling to find a way out of their emotional/mental hell. I am a walking testament to change and if you know me, you will attest to my story. If I can change, so can you. If I found a way out, so can you… but you have to truly want it and be willing to do the work necessary to achieve it.

I reached a severe low point in my personal pit of hell. Circumstance as well as my bad decisions made me suicidal but I knew I wanted to live. Even at this internally destructive low I knew I loved so many things about life. Even though I had begun to make the right decisions, I still felt What I Do this crippling sorrow for everything I had been through and my many failed attempts to make a good life for myself and those around me.

There was something missing. I was taking the steps. Rebuilding my life financially, enrolled in college and making good grades, cut out toxic characters though I was still dabbling in a toxic relationship which I soon ended as well. I was decompressing from the circumstances that had put me under, but the emotional wounds were still as fresh as ever. The word “decompress” kept hitting me.   
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Self Deception and self Actualization Chessa Peak has been in New Mexico since the age of 4 and is an honorary New Mexican. A bartender of over 10 years in the Duke City, musician, entrepreneur, and current student at CNM, Chessa is now currently working towards her own non-profit group that will support literacy, art and music programs for Albuquerque residents and her immediate community. Having come through a negative past, her writings deeply reflect the nature of her personal struggles in an attempt to help others overcome their personal battles.

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The Lost and Found: Judgment

Published by communitypublishingabq@gmail.com on September 8, 2015 Respond

Judgment by Chessa Peak

JudgementI find myself spinning the concept of “Judgment” in my head… this is how I relate to the concept.
As humans we are physiologically incapable of not passing judgment. This is how we have adapted and survived as a species. Eat this plant versus the plant that killed my friend Ug. Cross the road or wait. Which characters do I associate with best in my social interactions. Personally, I tried to live without judgment.

That is partially where my integrity broke down. I was feed the mindset that being judgmental meant I was a bad person. I find that if I don’t critically assess the people and situations I place Judgementmyself in, I land myself in a hole before I know I’ve stepped in it. I believe this be because my spirit is so big and powerful that I live that fast intrensically.

I don’t need drugs, alcohol, or men to contribute to this accelerated rate of life. I do this naturally. It’s my spirit. So for me, the ability to cast proper and healthy judgment for what I find acceptable or not has become a crucial survival skill and has helped me become responsible towards my personal evolution. I hope this finds you well. Cheers loves!

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Self Deception and self Actualization Chessa Peak has been in New Mexico since the age of 4 and is an honorary New Mexican. A bartender of over 10 years in the Duke City, musician, entrepreneur, and current student at CNM, Chessa is now currently working towards her own non-profit group that will support literacy, art and music programs for Albuquerque residents and her immediate community. Having come through a negative past, her writings deeply reflect the nature of her personal struggles in an attempt to help others overcome their personal battles.

Community Publishing brings local artists of all mediums together in creative collaborations for distribution as multimedia books while promoting literacy in our communities. #JoinOurCommunity at http://communitypublishing.org We are proud to be Marketers for the Rail Yards Market.

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